Category: Music

Will I live to face another day?

Hakan Anapa of the balance of eternity
What am I but just a fractured dark humanity
A faceless halo filled with nothing and hypocrisy
A ripple’s ripple on the murky pond of memory


Of how tough
Of a stuff
Am I rolled?

How long (how strong)
Will it take (is my make)
Before I keel over and break

Till my shards
Fill the sky
In the cold?

Although I may be capable of pressuring my cheeks to turn
The space around my heartless void is twinging like an acid burn
As much as everyone may try to tell me everything’s okay
Will I live?

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On the Lift to Ruin

On the lift
On the lift
On the lift to Ruin

What a gift
What a gift
What a gift awaits within

Outside the lift
Is it a rift?
Will I be miffed?
Is it a fifth?
Of my expectations?

On the lift
On the lift
On the lift to Ruin

What a gift
What a gift
What a gift awaits within

Outside the lift
Is it a rift?
Will I be miffed?

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Stablehand: improved song posts

I’ve decided that with songs I’m going to start just posting the lyrics on Sangkara instead of my dA, with the song on embedded inside. It might mean I basically stop using the dA for pretty much everything other than silly dream drawings, but unfortunately, sometimes you’ve just gotta leave redundant things behind and move on to more convenient systems. And I feel doing things this way will overall be way more convenient and organised even than my tumblr, which is a slight mess with music WIPs and such all over the place.

So! Neutrality, Ssivyin’s song, will be the first, to arrive shortly.

Ahahaha the intro to this is like perfect with bagpipes already

(Well, maybe perfect is not quite the right word; it is mildly grating. I’ll probably go back to the violin and use bagpipes as a secondary thing, if they even have the ability to not drown out everything.)

Anyway, preview of the first two stanzas to Ssivyin’s song, which I’m tentatively calling “Neutrality”. It gets much more varied but the bagpipes didn’t sound as good as a main instrument (read: kinda bad) on the other parts of it.


I never thought “default phone ringtones” and “things I like so much I actually want to remix them into my own songs” would be categories that would ever overlap.

But somehow this one ringtone from my tablet just sounded like about the PERFECT instruments and rhythms to put behind “Silica Heroine KRISTINA”. I’d made the mistake of trying to make Kris’s theme this grand and classical-ish French horn thing because I thought that sounded superheroey somehow, but honestly, this fits with her attribute and character way better. I can see now her theme is supposed to be full of tremendous energy.

I’m gonna have to redo the rhythms with my own soundfonts for the actual song given that as you can see the exact clips from the ringtone didn’t really harmonise well past the earliest part of what I already had so I just had to repeat it over and over (:p). But geez.

You know, the more I work on this song the more I think Aiyalam might actually be what Hardened-Frustration is. He doesn’t like the “noise” others make so he wants to drown them out with more noise and reduce them to static and ash. He’s kinda stopped fighting his problem and just risen above it to become it.

Though…. that’s kinda also what Scrambled-Frustration would be, and maybe it’s even more that?

Hmm. I just don’t know what H-Frustration would be now.

A wip of Gears of Science (Kate’s theme)!

I made most of this yesterday. For the longest time I just had the first eight bars sitting around plus the clock noises and didn’t have the energy to do any more, but then… suddenly I went back to my voice recordings and cranked out the rest.

This is maybe a teeny bit more than half the song. I’m not sure how long it will be but I’m guessing 3 minutes.

This is what Ferdisza, Vahyuata, Morsza (still unfinished -_-) sounds like with my new soundfont and the drum line edited veeeeerrrrrrry slightly so it better matches the actual beat of the music.

I’m not sure how long it will be because I actually haven’t finished the lyrics, but this is probably at least half of it.

Ok, well, today I was revamping Wit’s Theme, and as I was doing that, I was also thinking about how to rework the character.

I thought, maybe it would be interesting to play up this idea of Wit as being ‘the stylish trainer’ or something like that (acts cool, maybe has a distinctive clothing style, unique way of doing things, etc.). I was trying to do that a teeny bit with Tsuneo recently, and I kind of liked how it was turning out, so I thought, yeah, that could work.

In Japanese one way they like to say that is “smart” though. Hmm, Wit, the smart trainer.

Then suddenly it hit me.



Help I’m dying

The other day, I was working on “Ferdisza, Vahyuata, Morsza” (Yanha’s song) and discovered the BEST strings ensemble font I had ever heard, as well as the best violin I’d ever heard (that one took a lot of looking as the scarcity of violin fonts actually surprised me… I don’t think I want to go looking again for a few months). I wondered if “On the Lift to Ruin” would sound better with it, and boy was I ever right. If you want, you can compare it with the old version here.

This led to me spending probably two days subtly changing and revamping it to accommodate this font and also to better suit what the main characters’ actual themes actually sound like (I wrote this song way before I had any idea what any of them would sound like, and I’m surprised I ended up changing the instruments so little in the actual individual themes really).

(I may tweak this a teeny bit more yet, as I’m a little ambivalent about the drum track I added and the fact all the middle stanzas sound muffled. This post is a “perpetual download link” on the Internet Archive though, so it will have the latest version. I’ll upload this version again as a regular audio post if I make more edits.)

Oh yeah, here are the silly lyrics to this suddenly much more serious-sounding song.